To Develop: Blog 365 Day 27 – An Agonizing Minute


To Develop: Blog 365 Day 27 – An Agonizing Minute
By Jiddoe S'Phatt

Warmest greetings! My name is Jiddoe S’Phatt. Welcome to day 27 of “To Develop: Blog 365”.

Inspiration to write comes from a number of places. For this blog I’ve been inspired by hip-hop artist Rick Chyme and producer David K. Manley of Man@Work Productions. Through a collaborative project titled #DailyPieces365 these two artists will release a new song every day for the next 365 consecutive days! Their impressive dedication has motivated me to write a new blog every day of 2018.

A little piece of me goes into each entry I write. I hope you enjoy this one!

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I’m already gearing up to co-host annual charity concert Project Cypher, an event created by hip-hop artist and philanthropist HighTyde to raise money for special needs children and their families. This will be my 4th consecutive year taking the stage.

Cypher V is not until May 19 but I’m nervous already.

Why?

Because I have terrible, sometimes debilitating stage fright.

When I was a child my mother entered me into a modeling showcase. Being a preppy child in an inner city school system, I was already self-conscience about my appearance. I was teased. I was called names. I was put on the spot. Unwanted attention was drawn to me.

After several rehearsals for the showcase the night finally arrived. It was time to reveal what we’d learned and look nice doing it. As I stood in a single file line waiting for my name to be called my stomach began to feel as though I had the flu. As the line got shorter my stomach got worse, and I was sweating profusely. When I heard my name I took one trembled step into view and froze.

People were smiling and clapping. Cameras were flashing. They were even saying things to me but I couldn’t hear them. All the sound was muted. It was like putty was stuffed in my ears.

After an agonizing minute or so I turned and ran back to the dressing room area. I never came back out.
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